December 2011
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I'm hella hungry,
But I’m out of money for lunch! On the plus side it looks like I’m working really hard and am not taking a lunch break. Oh yeah.
“I carry from my mother’s womb
A fanatic heart.”
– William Butler Yeats, from “Remorse For Intemperate Speech”
Stepmom wants to talk about living conditions...
Which translates to she is going to tell me what she wants me to do in the next few months and ignore what I want. I get that she’s trying to help. I love that she is, its very sweet of her. But the options they’re pushing for would not help my mental stability. Grammies is the option. They want for me to go there help finish remodeling a room (that part I want to do regaurdless. I...
All of this worry and preporation. All the talks with my dad, all the planning. Nothing. Now I’m not moving out at all. Back to square one. At least I went to the house yesterday and Justus told me before I spent all week being exited for nothing. I know I was worried. But it didn’t cancell out the exitement of a new life and all that. But fuck, I just guess ill take it as it is. And...
I love books. The ability to be sitting in a crowd...
insanelystructuredchaos:
Mhmmm.
people: are you mad/sad or something?
me: this is just my face
Ive been thinking about this a lot lately.
Because of a school fine from my sophmore year ididnt get my diploma when everyon else did. So that means when I didn’t walk, they didn’t read my name during graduation. So now, to the people of my home town, I kind of look like a failure. Fuck man, that really blows.
I'm going to haveto move again.
And I really don’t want to. I would have liked to stay longer with my dad. Its just, I never had him before you know? I mean I did once. But through a series of tramatic events, I don’t remember much good from those years. I think what’s killing me about this is that its not what I want. I love the peple ill hopefully move in with. (If the rooms aren’t taken by then) but I...
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“We should not shed tears, that is a surrender of the body to the heart. It is...”
– Bleach, Tite Kubo
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Oh, for fucks sake.
My sweater smells like katie. :/
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So some of you might know.
But I can’t accept complements very well. I as just tinking about a week ago, cole and sam mentioned that I have a nice watch. Thank you friends. But my response was ‘ah, yea but it dosnt even tell the date’ which is pretty damn arrogant I must say. But I want to explain that it was something of an automatic response. In that moment I am embarrased because as confident as I may...
“Whoever wants music instead of noise, joy instead of pleasure, soul instead of...”
– Hermann Hesse (via moonhymns)
Picking up katie from the airport in the morning.
As ty would say. ‘Ask me if I can sleep at all?’
I miss living with my friends.
I miss the fun times and open conversation. I miss the weekends, always a search for fun. I miss smoking pot with my amigos. just beng together and talking without a care. Being mad about who did or did not do the dishes. Going out to see our friends out of town. I think most of all I miss when people would come over to my place. I was told more than once that when at my home people felt...
”I think you could fall in love with anyone if you saw the parts of them that no one else gets to see. Like if you followed them around invisibly for a day and you saw them crying in their bed at night or singing to themselves as they make a sandwich or even just walking along the street and even if they were really weird and had no friends at school, I think after seeing them at their...
Watching nausicaa and the valley of the wind with...
Fuck I love that they are so accepting of my, more or less, ‘nerdy’ lifestyle. Thanks to katie for borrowing out her movies.
Most of you know by now.
But our good friend Gage is looking to win a scholarship. Even if you don’t know him your vote does count. If you could take a moment to vote I’m sure he would be more than greatful. I would vote for your scholarship. Thank you for your time. :] http://www.wyzant.com/scholarships/v2/essay27132-Tooele-UT.aspx
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“I’ve gotta let you know, whatever you were going to do yesterday. You...”
– Nothin but stringz
You know sometimes I have serious questions for my...
One of the big ones is ‘how do you know you are in love?’ But considering the massive divorce rate that runs through my family, I never bothered to ask. But I still would like to know. Is it obvous? Do you learn over time? Is it something you’ll shit bricks about when you see, as the saying goes. I know love, but in love. The one love. How do I be sure? How do I know what I...
This isn't awesome.
Work is getting slow enough to scare me. I can’t loose hours like this there is just to much at stake. And as it turns out ill need to move out by may. I didn’t know that part of the plan until today and that really throws me off. I just feel like my dad would have said so in the begining. But it looks lik they expected me to be gone by now. Which kind of hurts to hear. But I guess I...
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Right now I am in idaho.
Jeremy and myself are visiting his mother and sister for the weekend. If you don’t know I lived with these three (and murry but he is in califrnia working right now) a few years back when I was attending the school of arts and enterprise in pomona california. The thing I most wanted to write about was how simply comfortable I feel here. Not so much idaho but this home. Its like an extention...
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